I think as a people we are struggling with a loneliness so deep that it rocks our core selves. It changes us. It distorts who we are supposed to be. It alters our view of the world. It alters how we love. I have been suffering from this loneliness, quietly and behind the scenes. Outwardly, I am bubbly, joyous, confidant, happy. Inwardly, I am bleeding, screaming for someone to notice me, the real me. That is our way. We hide behind smiles so that no one sees who we are, but all the while desperately wanting just that. Someone to notice. Someone to care. Someone to love us.
I wondered for a long time why we do this. There are billions of people on this earth. Why are we all struggling, when we could reach out to one another. I started to reach out to others. A one woman show to change the world. It was exhausting. There are so many people with need. As I started to pour myself out, I noticed that my cup was never being filled. I was still bleeding. I looked to those I loved and asked myself why they were not reaching out to me. Why was I the only one trying to help?
During this time, God revealed something to me that was so profound, comforting, and painfully obvious. Why are we expecting people (flawed and inherently evil) to fill a void that only HE can fill? He created us to be in communion with Him. He created us to have a natural need for intimacy with Him. He created us to love Him. When we forget that we were created to have relationship with Him, we forget who we are and why we are here. We start looking for that love and intimacy in people, material items, sex, drugs, media, food, exercise movies, and the list goes on and on. We start to have unhealthy thirsts for these things. These thirsts can NEVER be quenched. We will always want more. Jesus says in John 4:13-14 that , "Everyone who drinks this water will get thirsty again and again. Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life." That is such an exciting thought to me! To know that I never have to struggle with this awful loneliness ever again helps me to breath easier and feel lighter!
Now that we know God's promise, it is our duty to remember it. When you are feeling lonely, get into the presence of the Lord. Don't become a slave to worldly and finite quick fixes, but dive deeper into your relationship with God. Let him be apart of your everyday life. Every negative thought or action should not go unheard, let Him in on the secret. You can be honest with Him about your faults and know that He brings renewed strength and love. His love will help you open up to others and share with them your struggles and strengths.
I hope this post helps someone who is struggling silently. Do not be silent any longer! Speak! Share your life with God because He is living! He yearns for us to reach out to Him and share our lives with him :)
